Am I Going Fast Enough?!
Chapter Thirteen - Hurry Up & Relax
There was a funny comment mentioned this week, said jokingly, yet it struck something quite deep within me.
“Hurry up and Relax.”
I laughed at first, but then realised how true it actually felt. I have created more space in my life to rest, to slow down, to restore… yet somehow there is still this urgency underneath it all. A pressure to relax. A buzzing feeling that says, “You should be resting better. You should be more restored by now.”
Such a strange paradox.
Over the past year, I have come to understand the different states of my nervous system much more deeply. From the panic and anxiety of uncertainty around my visa and returning to Australia to be with family, to the grounded and nourishing calm that comes through offering kirtan and music. So many waves of experience, emotion, change, and feeling.
Yet even within the calmer moments, I noticed something remained. A subtle tension underneath. A longing to fully let go, to completely soften, to deeply exhale. And honestly… I do not even know exactly what I am trying to release.
What I do know is that healing is not always as simple as changing the external environment. Sometimes the body has lived in survival, uncertainty, rushing, or pressure for so long that even rest can feel urgent. Even slowing down can carry tension within it.
But slowly, through awareness, daily practices, presence, music, nature, prayer, and care for the body, mind, and soul, something begins to shift. Not perfectly. Not all at once. But gently.
Perhaps true rest is not something that can be forced. Perhaps it arrives when the body finally feels safe enough to receive it.
And maybe this journey was never about becoming fully healed or finally arriving somewhere. Maybe it is simply about learning to meet each season of life with a little more awareness, softness, and trust.
It’s not about the destination. It is the journey of experience we are blessed to live through in this life.
Unfold gently and rest in your returning
With love and presence,
Jessica Dhara
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The treatment in this photo is Hrid Basti.
A profoundly calming Ayurvedic treatment that supports emotional balance, deep relaxation, and softness within the heart space. Warm herbal oil is gently held over the heart centre to soothe the nervous system and bring a sense of grounding, calm, and emotional stability.
This treatment is currently offered within clinic, although not yet available on the website. If you feel called to receive this deeply heart-opening treatment, please contact me directly for more information.
